I have been tempted to write this blog post for a few months now, and I was afraid of what kind of response I would receive from it, but honestly, I don't care anymore. I've had several life events happen during these last few months, and I keep dwelling on the topic. However, life is too short, you either live it to it's fullest potential, or you don't, and I want to make the most out of my life while I'm here on this planet.
A few months ago I had a friendship breakup/fallout/whatever you want to call it, with a best friend who meant a lot to me. I've had several of these throughout the years, but this one has hurt the most because I was the one who broke it off. I won't go into much detail about the friendship because I would like to keep that private. We had a fantastic friendship for a few years there, but we both evolved and we grew into different individuals than when our best friendship first started, thus causing us to go off in our own separate ways. I will admit that I probably could gone about the breakup in a different way, but unfortunately, that is in the past now.
Over time, the fact that I had to let go of this friendship hurt me because I was wondering if it was the right thing to do. The individual contacted me and told me how I had hurt them, and I understand, but our friendship became toxic and wasn't the healthiest thing for me in my life anymore, and I explained that to them. I would like to think that they understood what I was saying, but I know I can never take that hurt away from either one of us. However, I know the good memories I do have of that friend will last me for a lifetime, just like any of the other memories of friendships I have had fallouts with.
Honestly, I wish there was a source on the internet during this time that said it was okay, and maybe there is, but I couldn't seem to find it. So, I am writing this blog post to say that it is 100% okay to breakup with a best friend. It hurts, definitely, but breakups usually do, and if you think it is what is best for your life at that moment in time, then do it. I have been a happier person since then, and I have been able to focus on myself a lot more. My grades have greatly improved in school, and in my other relationships as well! I have been able to reconnect with a great friend that I've had for many years, and I love that we have been able to "rekindle" our friendship!
I guess, the purpose of this blog post is essentially, don't regret doing what you think is the right thing to do for yourself in your own life. If there is something you view as a negative entity in your life, one that you believe is pulling you down, then remove it. Life is extremely short, and we don't know how long we will be here for, so you have to make the most of it. During these past few months I was in a car accident, and it helped me have a little bit of a wake up call. I did absolutely nothing wrong, and I shouldn't feel guilty or hurt or feel bad about wanting what I want for myself and for my own life. I deserve happiness and I deserve to take control of my life.
I once saw a photo that said, "There are three types of friendship in life. Friends for a reason, some for a season, and others for a lifetime." I would like to call this friend a friend for a reason. They helped me through growing pains out of high school, and I will never forget what they have done for me. They have taught me a lesson about myself, and I am extremely grateful for that. If they are reading this, they know who they are, and I would just like to thank them.
